Boring weekends

I don't know why, but I have a very boring weekends. And I think I'm turning out to be a very boring person. I always play safe, watch my back, front, left and right.. right before I make any decision. I don't take risk anymore. It's like, I don't want to ruin my life but at the same time, I think I am. I'm boring. Why can't I be like anyone else, who goes out on weekends with friends they know and just chill out. What happen to the times when I can just call out and we can just talk just about anything. I'm running out on ideas on what to talk about.

Is it because I am left so far behind that I don't see the need to even go out to talk to people anymore. What happen to me? Its very hard to find people to go out with, I just don't have any idea on who I should go out with. Its even harder for me to ask people out cause I'm such a boring person that I don't have any idea of where to go and what to do. All I do is sit at home, on my laptop or my xbox and just play by myself. No one entertains me anymore. Everyone is busy or people just don't care. Glad I still have Hidayat who talks to me and plays Warcraft III even though its such and old game. But still, I get to socialize, talk to people you see. I just don't know who else is there to talk to. Just found an evil twin, named Fauziah. haha... Mama is gone. Nanny comes around once in awhile but she got homework to finish up. Halimah will come and just laugh at me for no reason.

My life is just standing still and I'm still trying to improve my game. Fifa 09 is a great game but I'm not getting any better at it. I keep on losing and I just don't know of any tactics to use right now. FM09 is another game that I keep on losing. I think I should just quit being a manager and try my best at being a player. Ouh ya, played soccer on Friday. Police found a dead body lying below the Kallang Bridge near block 64. I had no idea what happen. But when the police came around while we were having our game, they asked for our IC. Well, I didn't bring it! haha, too use to telling my name to the police anyways.

Soccer game was great, teamed up with Hafiz, Acan and Zaiful. We won quite a few games but we were having trouble scoring. I wasn't playing my best. I got tired too easily and lost the ball a couple of times. But I was sure proud of the 1st kick when I scored with wonderful curling shot. That was the only highlight of the night. I did score one but the ball hit so hard off the post and came back out. And they say it won't count. I was like..errr..okay. I guess I shouldn't shoot so hard. I guess wearing boots makes me shoot stronger but I still need to control my power. My accuracy was way out of my standard. I will need to improve my technique in shooting, passing, reading the game, making runs to the box, jumping for the ball, control on my chess, dribbling and keeping the ball close to my feet. What a list for me to improve on. Acan will be counting on me to make it as right winger since he needed one for his team.

Ouh well, I still got a lot to learn and a lot to improve on. I want a driving license.=)