A look back->

2008. 

Will forever be the year I regretted everything I did and missed out everything I did not do. 

It has been the worst year of my life. With some good things that happen but the worst always stays in long memory. Had to struggle with FYP and only manage a B for it. Miss out on not saying the things I want to say to her before a long goodbye. Wanted things to go right but ended up on the wrong path. My mistake and I paid for it. 

I've not been in the best of mood. The only thing that is keeping me going are the games that I have. I just kept on gaming to stay alive. Monster Hunter 2, Football Manager, Cabal Online, DotA, Fifa 09 and Fable II. If not for games I would have gone out and commit some crimes and I wouldn't come back home.

Enlisted on 8 July, it was the start of the worst time in my life. I totally hate NS. I feel its a total waste of time. Being stranded and ask to live together with a bunch of dumb people. What better can I ask for in my life? Its like teaching me to live with a bunch of animals doing some crazy shit I never want to do in life. Eventhough it is still a waste of time, I still need to get it done. Its just another obstacle and I'm going to run it down.

Feb ends my 3 years connection with NYP and I graduated on June. It wasn't such a great Graduation as it was filled with mistakes. I didn't manage to say goodbye to everyone. I was very sad that day eventhough I appear to be happy. The day was too short for me and I wasted most of it. I miss all my friends there. I miss schooling.

After NYP, i was left with few months before NS. So Sara intro me a job. Its was a pleasure working with Kimo and Mervyn again. We keyed in car plates while sitting down at the carpark. Just to see how many cars come in and out. And the pay was good too. I still remember sitting down with Mervyn and doing stupid things. Missed the times while I was just sitting in his car and singing songs with him. It was a moment to remember.

Back home, I was filled with troubles whenever it comes to Hari Raya and even Christmas. I always fight with my parents and I blame it on my sister. She thinks home is school, treating family like students? Ouh please laa... I just don't get it. My sis shows total disrespect and I will have to pay for it. She thinks she is so funny, well I'm not laughing. She is just plain boring and I will never want to talk to her again. It really spoils my mood every time she opens her mouth. I rather keep quiet about it but I told mum about it. I just want to say this to sis..." Chicken is ayam, Duck is Itik. Lu tutup lu punya mulut pun cantik!"

Okay after all the bad times, I want to remember those great times. I guess going for Orientation 08 was good. I met up with SK, Erna, Mama and Ally right after it. Then the EXCOs went out to eat and chill out at Starbucks Suntec till late night. VoiceOut 08/09 wasn't that bad as I took many great photos and enjoyed myself to great time. BandzOut was good as we get to see our seniors back and took pics with them. I even went back walking with Azzy and Aini, my Fav 2 seniors of all time. At the event, I also saw her, SMS and she don't even save my number anymore. Wanted to talk to her but she was too far away. And back home after that, I wrote something I shouldn't have a regretted badly. Phat nite wasn't all that great. I was back from camp and didn't have any strength to party much. So I just sat in the VIP room and soon after found out how much I missed. Regretted again. Before I forget, we went for a little Karaoke on on of the days.=P

A day at marina barrage was one of the great days I had this year. Celebrating Christmas again with the favorite people in my life. Hairul got my present! and I got Kamal's. Took tons of pictures. and played with Firesticks. Then we played charade and remember the way we celebrate for everytime we guessed it correctly.." black is black is black is black..uch uch uchuch.." yeah! then we played out favorite game back in Moon cake festival. I guess we still have it. Should have taken a video but it is always a moment to remember and the video keeps playing in my head for every game.

I was posted to SCDF HQ and safe to say that its not as bad as I thought. Met a few great people and not so great people. My name is famous on the 1st day already as people keep screaming my name at the Parade Square. Shit. I was just about to keep a low profile. Now everyone knows me. And see me grow to become an IC as a Private. I guess I'm growing faster than everyone else. I'm in the Service Quality Dept on the 8th floor. Why does everything have be on the 8th floor? -__-"

Okay, I'm tired of looking back as there are so many things to type in one post. Anyways I would like to thank some people for making my year of 2008 a fruitful one. Not according to any order... Mum for taking care of me and cooking great food and buying even greater food. Dad for buying me a new TV, supporting me all the way and getting a MacBook Pro and XBOX 360 for me. It was great and I really appreciate it. Bro for keeping me updated with stuffs only he knows of. Sis for keeping me on my toes and help me in anger management.

Friends... Halimah for all those virtual kisses and kissing, muacks. Asra for still talking to me eventhough we parted a long time ago. Ananda for keeping my weekends great and still keeping in touch. Acan for recruiting me and playing soccer with some great players and trying to get me fit again. Nasir for smiling and asking me outs for breaks and playing Monster Hunter. Hairul for being like a close brother and eating together and many stuffs together. Firdaus for still being that great Gamer and a greater friend who always walk me to school. Kamal for the funny moments and being able to talk to you anytime. Yew king for being there and always able to go out when theres no one else. Hidayat and Shikin for keeping me awake at nights for DotA and going out often on weekends. Bugis seems to be our fav place and accompanying me to buy me stuffs. Fana for being able to talk anytime and anywhere, eventhough we never met, I know you have been great friend. Rozi for accompanying me to Queensway and always able to talk to you about anything and random stuffs only we know of. Yuan Ching for being able to go out with me when there's no one else and ask me to accompany you to places, I never know anyone else would. Aida(boocuk) for talking to me on my visit to school and always being my one and only boocuk. Erny for those crazy moments and talking and keeping me updated on things, will take care kay...Erna for always looking for me when she's online and talking to me about almost anything. Sze kee for being my darling and missed going out with you too. Mama for the cup cake and one night walk and dinner. Miss mama always and you are always cuter than b la..Nanny Joyce for talking to me through out the year and always keep me on my feet when I'm only able to crawl at any point of my life. Nana for the hurt and pain but I will still forgive you for everything and I still miss the times we shared.Sara for giving me a job and always there for a chat and keeping me happy with those hard baked cookies. And keep on laughing girl...Ally for being wild and crazy and saying the nicest things to me to keep me feeling that I'm still needed in this world, you kept me going girl. Fadilah for being so pretty. Marzura for being the best and always available even though taken. Ishak for being a great teacher. Isaac for being there to guild be along. Jim for being such a crap and funny guy. Irfan for being nice always and taking responsibility. Ismail for being such a one of a kind friend and being emo with me. Realise how many 'I's I have in my Dept. Firdauz for being the best ustaz I can ask for and treating me and believing I am still a good person.Ashy for keeping my FYP great fun with those every day lecture and I miss Cheryl Mallery.. Cheryl Ong for still being the best buddy I could ask for. AO for being a great soccer fan and always supporting Liverpool... 

Everyone still thinks I can be good. But what if the dark side takes over me...

I would like to think I'm still good and will always be good. Thanks for 2008.