WALL-E

Yesterday, went out with Anand to Cine leisure to watch Wall-E! weee~ Evvaaa! Its raining again, everytime go out with Anand, confirm will rain. I don't know why. The movie is very very funny! I laugh a lot and its very cute and touching story.

Wall E stands for Waste Allocation Load Lister Earth-Class and EVE stands for Extra-terrestrial Vegetation Evaluator. How cute ehh? I love the movie so much, feel like watching it again though. Should get the DVD when its out. Sorry Bai Lu, you didn't get to join us this time, cause of your camp. We watch other movie next time outs.

What about today? Today is a time wasting day. I wish I could do better. Was suppose to buy a new watch. It was my dads idea anyway. He said it would be my birthday present. But now things so expensive! No discount, GST got ah. And my birthday is on November and its not even October yet. Okay, for now, I will list down the things I need to get so I won't forget

1. A new watch( less than S$100)
2. A new laptop( Apple macbook or Sony Vaio)
3. A new Hand phone( iPhone please?)
4. A new telephone line ( after I get a proper job)
5. A new bag ( crumple bag would be nice)
6. Get my PSP fix.
7. Service my HDD fix.
8. A new PS3, with Metal Gear Solid 4, PES 2009 and a new HD LCD TV
9. get Football Manager 2009 as soon as it comes out.
10. A new cap.( simple black)
11. Get my own room, which is impossible now.
12. a new pair of Shoes
13. a new girfriend? ok, I can't think of anymore

Anyways, was out to Toa Payoh and went to Geylang Serai to check out the Bazaar. Its not even fully filled with shops yet, I'm like there already. Saw liana but didn't have anything to say, so I just pass by without saying anything. What I felt was, its very hard to find a very decent and innocent girl nowadays. There's just so many things that don't fit me. There will always be some things I just can't accept or can't take. Having learn all the lessons in the past, I want to be as happy as I am when I'm with her and when we are apart. Its just hard. I don't want y girl to have dyed hair color or have piercing all over, not to over exposing herself. Wear decent clothes would be good enough. I don't want to say anymore, but I just wish to find that person soon but I know it won't be easy. But its okay, take it slowly ehh.

Shall update soon. Tomorrow is the beginning of the fasting month. So to all my friends and family, Selamat Berpuasa kays... And yaa, tomorrow, I will be having my powerpoint presentation and test too! Clerk course is a total waste of time but I do learn something though. =)

It's time to get my game on a DotA again. Can I have a better life than this?

Super Clerks

" You all look sleepy, all half right down. Carry on 20 for me"- Instructor

Early morning wake up call, and we all fresh and ready to type type. Thanks for coming late guys, now we have to come at 740am instead of 745am. Sabo-ing is just a part of everyday NS life I guess. Got to get use to this "One for all, all for one" shit.

Finally got my Home Team card, I don't really know the benefits yet, but I guess its a good thing to hold this card.

" I don't want to punish you all, but you all not discipline, see Officer don't know how to greet. You all need muscles to type is it?"- Instructor

Well, I guess all of us need some work out to keep us typing away.haha, how bout this...

" Clerks keluar baris! Backspace, Enter, we are Clerks!"

I find it good way for us to leave the line. But it's not implemented yet. Sometimes I just wish I'm a fire fighter now, getting to run here and there, perspire like there's no tomorrow. And not just sitting down in aircon room and just down desk job.

We had a test today, was very very easy.I can't believe I even study for it. We learn NSPAM and Excel too. Tomorrow is Excel test, I guess it will be another easy one for me. I guess being a clerk is not so bad after all. The best is you get to deduct NSF and NSMen allowance too. How great is that and you will get to see secret document. These are just some good things about clerks.

One final thing, that made me laugh alot yesterday...

" Where's you belt, Bob?" - Instructor.
" His stomach covering it!"- Clerks

Everyone laugh all the way back home.=)

Come Back Kings

Its amazing how football can effect human emotions greatly. Liverpool did it again. Beating Middlesbrough 2-1 in a 0-1 then coming back to life with 2 goals. Goals coming for Jamie Carragger and Steven Gerrard. 2ndly Raul and company came from a 3-2 then 4-2 to a stunning 6-5 comeback, beating Valencia. A goal for Ruben De La Red was the best among them.

Back in CDA, 1st day in CDA. A new place, new people, same rules. I will be a clerk for the rest of my 1 year and few months. I guess thats ok, I'm not complaining at all. Our instructor is Corporal Tan, a nice short guy. Our "teacher" is Captain Fadhila, yes, she is a lady. She have yet to scold us, but she seems like a nice lady. Easy to talk to, can take jokes. I guess thats ok, I just want a pleasant 7 days stay, now left 6 more days. I will get my posting on 2 September 2008.

Still got a lot of things to do, like polishing my boots, iron clothes for tomorrows uniform inspection. We can't sleep in class and if we do, we must tell a story. That made me think hard, if I were to sleep, I will need to dream and dream big. Then I will be able to wake up and tell my story to everyone.

Class Rules:
1. Must always be Punctual
2. Respect
3. No Sleeping
4. No vulgarities
5. Speak only English

I guess I can live up to the rule, but I can't stand one thing..." one for all, all for one". Its the only thing I hate about NS. Why do everyone have to suffer cause of someone else's mistake? I can't live like this, I rather be alone and suffer alone and leave the rest alone. What do you think?

HeakLeakMuak

I feel so old and yet I still think I'm young, maybe its my size la. Anyways, Halimah went on to blog about me. One whole post just about me, well, I just feel like doing the same, but my own way.

I know this girl from MacPherson Secondary,
But she look mean but pretty(*nasty)
Didn't know her back then like I know her now
Think I wanna write seriously, but I do anyhow

Here's to you, the girl from RP
This ones for you from Fawze
You might think I'm greedy
And I force you to write bout me
But I remembered it was you who wanted to write it
And I don't remember and part of me wanting it

And yes, I am serving NS
but not all CD men are mats
And no, you can't write anymore
cause you don't know nuts

About me, you right I'm caring concern
and I can wait for raya for this
All I wanted you to understand and learn
is drugs and smoke are out of the list

Sometimes I just miss the old days when I was still back in the Angklung. Glad I still got my juniors around but now that you've all graduated, there's no looking back I guess.

And here is a picture of my Angklung Juniors. Halimah & Tijah=)

Now we are even, no need treat you a meal, Swensen some more! And yeah, your birthday da lamer lepas, what for need give you big big surprise?

Okay, some good things about Halimah. She talks to me often. Takes away my boredom. Makes me laugh over lame jokes. Easy to talk to and never fail to reply. Talks crap. Not afraid to say anything, very open minded I guess. And she use to put me in her featured friends, how cool is that? We barely know each other and I don't have many people putting me in their featured friends on friendster.

Bad things about her, she don't like me. She treats me badly and jokes about me. But I guess thats okay. I don't mind. She keep asking for treats. She keeps asking me to tag her. She removed me from her featured friends. She thinks I'm superman, can type very fast. She don't let me sleep early. I like her picture where she took in school. She don't have a facebook account.

I guess thats all for now, shall blog soon. =)Bored no one tag yet. ouh well~

Look Into My Eyes

Look into my eyes and tell me what you say is not a lie. Sabo so many times, still think we can be friends. Still ask me out and tell me I not "jiwe" if I don't go. But where were all of you when I was alone cleaning the bunk and doing my own area cleaning? That's right, you were just sitting there and watch as the world turn round and round over again. What where you thinking when you over reacted and scream over a small thing. Why can't you take a joke? If can't take joke, then don't make joke k. If can't be disturbed, then stop disturbing people. You always want to win and think your better than everyone else.

" There are 2 worlds. Yours and ours."

Please don't misunderstand this. It not that I don't want to make friends. It's just that I don't want to mix around with bad company and as far as I judge from my 7 weeks with you, its hard to say that you guys were ever my friends at all. You all just come and go. And that seems to bother me and that's been my real problem in NS. I find it hard to trust again. Let me take some time off and think again. And giving feedbacks are just a waste of time when you don't want to change anything. Stay in you zone and move on with your life and stop asking so many questions. It might just hurt someone. Don't ask personal questions or ask for personal help when you don't know me well.

1st of all, there's bug everywhere, in this picture,
my Hero got no skills on 1st level of Dota.shit!

My Harddisc is ill and my PSP analog stick irritates me too much. I need new stuffs for replacement. My laptop is dying soon and I hope I don't lose anything=( Can someone please help me. Leading a new life is not easy. Taking back the old life is harder. I don't want to look back on the things I've done before cause its never coming back. I miss you so much that it hurts.

"One thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind. "

When I'm thinking, alone and quiet. It must be about you. Sometimes I'm just lost and wonder what the world would be like if your still here. I miss my true friends on my side. At least some of them are still around. I want to DotA now.Hope a good movie will come out soon. I miss eating popcorn and nachos. Going to make a play list of emo songs soon.hehe

I predict a Lonely September. =)

POP oh!

Platoon 5 108th Intake

Thanks for the memories even though they weren't so great.
Dorm 10The X-men- Sick club
Dorm 10,Locker 7, Bed 7, Register no. 22.My locker,My Bed(left of the picture), me and my Uniform

21st August marks the day I finally pass out from BRTC and become a qualified Rescuer. My time there, I learn some handy tools, first aid, fire fighting and CPR too. Its been a great experience and everyone was sad to leave the place, we will definitely miss camp. But overall everyone was happy that we've pass out. For me, I won't miss a moment I'm there, I'm just happy I'm out of there.

22nd August marks the day Mama finally took baby out for a walk and some cupcakes too.=) Thanks for the walk and cupcakes Mama. And thank Yat for the company and also the fireworks. Sound so wrong. We went to Tong Seng to eat. And I didn't know Mama scared of cats, and my SMS ring tone is some cats meow-ing. lol. Mama so freaked out. Then we walk from Tong Seng( Bugis) to City Hall.

Here is a picture of me and Yat sitting down while waiting for the fireworks to start. Can see my round head huh? We waited so long that we decided to buy $1 ice-cream. And when we did, it finally starts.=)

" I'm not here to see fireworks, I'm here to make fireworks."

- Someone I know, don't want say who.

What's a POP without some fireworks ehh?

Wishes, Hits and Misses

Wishes

I want the following week to end quickly and get the post I wanted. POP oh! I want to feel useful and wanted by everyone. I want to care for people again. I feel that I don't really care that much anymore. I want someone to rely on cause I don't really know who I can rely on when I need someone. I always think twice before really talking to someone. I think I'm lost and need a guide. I want to get rid of one of my bunkmate who always irritate me with his lies and all the things he do to make people hate him. I don't want to keep quiet about this and keep it all to myself. It's been hurting, a lot. I want to get out of BRTC soon. I want to be fit again. I want her to be okay again. I don't want to see her hurt. I want her to talk to me again. I want to know how she is doing. I want new songs. I want to learn how to fly. I want to eat good food and not camp food. I want an outing soon.( been staying home for 3 weekends). I want to see my friends again. I want a new cap. I want a holiday. I need a break. I want Liverpool to Win EPL this season. I want Fernando Torres to be top scorer. I want Man U to fail. I want to be best in platoon. I want a new lifestyle. I want some new clothings. I want a new watch. I want freedom. I want a packet of tissue paper. I want a glass of water now. I want to eat. I want to talk to the people I care about. I want more time with my laptop. I wish I will be better soon.

Hits

Fernando Torres Hits the Sunderland Net on 83' min. I got top in class for CPR. Nearly perfected the art of "Kiss of Life". I found myself in nanny blog. Nice of nanny to blog about me. I want to talk to her more on msn. Nice goal from Everton's Mikel Arteta, superb free kick. I'm so happy the new EPL season is up and running again. No more boring nights. DotA is great as I'm doing better each and every game I play.

Misses

I miss having long hours for myself. I miss the SIT club room. I miss Mervyn's guitar. I miss playing music on my laptop and being a Deejay. I miss her, too much. I miss talking in front of everyone. I miss acting. I miss performing on stage. I miss making people laugh. I miss being fun. I miss Halimah( force to say). I miss my buddy, playing ChiKoPak. I miss going out. I miss having dates. I miss taking pictures with Za"Gay"Ty. I miss singing along with Kamal. I miss adding fun to funny in Hairul's joke. I miss riding Nasir's bike. I miss working out with Firdaus. I miss eating with my friends. I miss having candle light breakfast with Weishan. I miss walking back from school with Rozi. I miss sitting beside Yuan Ching in lecture. I miss irritating Alvin Lee. I miss cheering on Liverpool with AO and fight with Kamal about Football. I miss Anand's call and Acans place. I miss playing cards with them at the void deck. I miss playing soccer everyday and everynight. I miss scoring alot of goals for my team. I just miss hitting the ball. I miss the sweet voice of my Ex. I just miss long hours talking to her. I miss having conference with friends. I miss using the house phone. I miss watching Wrestling. I miss going out everyday to buy and trade cards. I miss Al-Amin( a good old friend since Kindergarden, where did you go?:( ) I miss sliding the the side railings. I miss singing to myself and think I actually sound good. I miss everyone and everything I use to know.

Summary: I'm a new person and miss the old me. I wish for so many things that I will never get. There are hits and misses in life, someone please help me count my wishes and misses and compare it to my Hits.=)

Packed day

Woke up at 5am and had a quick bathe, pray and get ready to go to BRTC( Basic Rescue Training Center) for my Reserve Guard Duty. Took me about an hour plus to reach there, sign my name and waited till 830am. After 7 of the main Guard people came, we can go since another 3 will be coming late. It was kinda silly la, go there, sign and wait then can go home.

So headed home, relax abit and off to Tampines for Kimo's sisters wedding. Time moved so fast. I forgot to bring my EZ link so I had to go home again to take it. So silly of me. I keep forgetting things. There were Nasir, Hairul, Ain, Jessica, YJ, Cheryl, Xiaowei, May, Yani and Zaty. We did some chatting and eating and now I'm back home to get ready to go back to camp again. What a life ehh?? No time to take pictures, no time to chill out much and I reduce the amount of games I play.

2 more weeks to POP( Passing Out Parade). OC night is coming soon. I can't wait to see how my platoon mates perform on stage. I wish I could perform. But I'm doing the planning.=)

Nanny go see Olympics, Mama dunno go where, Ally go jogging, Erna helping mum transfer MP3 to her MP3 player and I don't know what there rest are doing. Seems everyone is busy nowadays. haizzah..=(

08-08-08

NS life is boring. Keep doing the same thing over and over again. And soon enough I'm becoming numb about all the things happening around me. I have the thirst for more punishment now. I'm getting so bored at being cared and treated like a 'glass'. I can't be expected to run, no games can be played and no footdrill at all. This kinda sucks in a sense. But 2 more weeks to POP.

" how you spell popcorn? ...P-O-P..P.O.P. lor!" - Lam To Fai

"how you spell ordinary?" ...O-R-D..O.R.D. ouh!

zzzz..guess friends make jokes and stupid laughters all around. I just don't get it how these people can be so happy while serving NS. I guess I have yet to find motivation to go on with NS. I simply hate NS. I don't like the people, I don't like the style. I hate waking up at 445am ever morning. I hate water parades. I hate dinner. I hate the night snack. I hate mee hoon breakfast. I hate doing maintenance. I hate cleaning the grandstand. I hate cleaning the toilet. I hate sweeping my dorm. I dislike some of my platoon mates. Freaking lazy people. I often cover their backs. Using vulgarities all day and night. wake up with a vulgar word coming out of everyones mouth. nothing is good, really. Serious.

"I asked her to stay, but she wouldn't listen, she left before I had the chance to say...Ouh~"

Ouh well, I love to sing this part some how. I don't know why. I keep on singing this song every morning when I'm feeling blue and down.

"Now its far too late she's gone away..."

Why can't I get my mind off camp. Every night I keep dreaming about cleaning the toilet, sweeping the floor, scrubbing the toilet bowl, whipping the tables and mopping the floor. I wish I could go back to the way life was when I was still in Poly. I miss those days with my OGLs. Some of the best days in my life.

"Every night you cry yourself to sleep, thinking" Why does this happen to me? Why does every moment have to be so hard...?"

I just wish for so many things and things would not have change, that would be better. I'm so serious in camp and don't joke much either. Some times people ask me if I'm alright but I can't answer that since I'm not even sure myself.

" Just give me one more chance to make it right."

I just want to make it right this time. No more excuses. No more lies. Please give me time to work this out. I really want this to work. Can someone help me with my script? Why do I have to plan everything. I don't want to screw this up.

Maybe

[Verse 1:]
Beep, beep oh look
Now there goes my phone
And once again
I’m just hoping it’s a text from you
It ain’t right
Read your messages twice,
thrice, four times a night
it’s true
Everyday I patiently wait
Feeling like a fool but I do anyway
Nothing can feel as sweet and as real
Coz no way I would’ve waited in pain

[Chorus:]
And maybe it’s true I’m caught up on you
Maybe there’s a chance you’re stuck on me too
Maybe I’m wrong it’s all in my head
Maybe we're afraid of words we both hadn’t said

[Verse 2:]
I’m always connected online
I'm on facebook/myspace all the time
Hoping you've checked my profile
Just can't help wondering
why you play it cool
But sometimes I’m
hopelessly falling for you
Every night on the phone and I
In love with you and I know
that you like it girl
All joking inside lets see you and I
Come out and say what
you’re trying to hide

[Chorus:]
And maybe it’s true I’m caught up on you
Maybe there’s a chance you’re stuck on me too
Maybe I’m wrong it’s all in my head
Maybe we're afraid of words we both hadn’t said

[ Bridge: ]
Like I really want you
I think I need you
Maybe I miss you
I’m thinking of you
Like I really want you
I think I need you
Maybe I miss you
I’m thinking of you

[Chorus:]
Maybe it’s true I’m caught up on you
Maybe there’s a chance you’re stuck on me too
Maybe I’m wrong it’s all in my head
Maybe we're afraid of words we both hadn’t said

Ps: A song I'm currently addicted to.

a Comic Book Story

I just feel like editing some fun pictures I have and this is what I got. Sorry gay, but your the only one I have taken alot of fun pictures with, thanks for being such a fun person!=)

Captain Marvelous

By the end of 4 weeks in BRTC( Basic Rescue Training Center), I've learn a lot of lessons in life and how important it is to love what you are doing. Currently, I decided on one thing, and that is, NS life is not that great. I hate NS, I hate everything about it. It just takes away my freedom, most of it. Free time is not even that free too. Either way, you still have to do what is told. I'm like a "Saikang warrior" for the whole 4 weeks I've been there. And you can't depend on anyone there, not even yourself.

Your body will let you down sometimes but your mind is there to push it. With a strong mind, I barely made it through this week. We often had to lie to survive. No one in there can be trusted. But we all just follow the orders of our superiors. I had a hectic week back in and a hectic weekend out. A lot of things to do and so little time, guess time is never on my side.

I currently have a performance to plan out, again. Why do I always volunteer for such things? Why do I even bother to help people who are not even helping themselves? This is where my leadership skills come in. I guess I have to have great influence to push their butt to work with me. Some would be easily influence but some just got big butts to move along. People are getting lazier as the weeks goes by. I really hate this.

"Be a man and don't show it."- Lance Corporal

Thats what I did, i don't show my emotions even my greatest discomfort in the camp. I just hope the next 3 weeks fly faster than I could blink. And thanks for all those who's been there for me when the days of my life gets darker and endure the changes that I'm facing now. Its not easy but I have to finish this. Thanks for all the support, you know who you are.

Why don't I chat that much as I do before? Why don't I talk that much as before? I don't even care of whats happening to people around me. Is it cause I let them live their life without me? Maybe they wanted this. Did I do the right thing? Will I regret if I ever change my ways.

Yesterday, I relive the day when the heartbreak began. Many wouldn't know or many will forget. But it was the date clear in my memory, forever. It was the day I denied, lie and died. Its the saddest story in my life currently. I don't have much sad memories but yesterday was just one of it. And today, is a "happy" day. I don't want to lie anymore or deny it again. She's gone for good...=)