Turning grey...

So what, I end up turning into something no one wants to be. I use to be green and now I'm grey. I don't think I can be what you want me to be. Even if I was, you couldn't even see it in me. How could you think of me as the bad apple? Why is he always the good one when I'm the one one who always helps you in everything and listens to you always. I'm sick of it. Being treated like some animal. Doing all the things I don't want to. Doing all the things you ask me to and what do I get. Get stupid comments and being lectured for things I would never do. I hate being lectured. Am I stupid even after getting a diploma. I'm not broken and I'm still doing well. So why do I deserve to listen to those everyday nags kids usually get? I feel sorry for myself. I wasn't able to prove to you that I can be trusted and I'm matured enough. 

I hate being treated like a kid. Start treating me like an adult or I will never end up being one.

Every hari raya turns out to be a bad day for me this year. Yes, I was down again today. I was suppose to go to somewhere but end up staying at home just because I had some disagreement somewhere along the way. And the rain didn't help it one bit. Its all the rains fault. IF it never rained, things might turn out different. Having all these thoughts on my head. It really starts to haunt me everyday. When will i finally be treated as an adult? Cos' I still feel I'm lost kid and a baby. I just wish I could cry again and spill all the milk on the floor.

And I need a new phone. Thats the reason I would never pick up your calls. My phone is dying on its own. Every time I want to change and prove to my dad that its really dead, it will auto revive. Smartest phone in the world, indeed. It leaves me when I need it and comes to me when I'm leaving it.