Liverpool In Singapore

What a day, 1st time seeing the Liverpool team so close to me yet so far. Kuyt was the most active, waving at us all and even talking at the same time. The rest just look exhausted. They smile and thumbs up. Torres was like so cool with his blonde hair. There was quite alot of people there, all screaming and singing. Talked to a few Liverpool fans while I was there. We were all hoping that we can lift the league cup next season. Would really want Xabi to stay on.

Can't wait for the match 650pm on channel 5. I do wish to be at the national stadium though=)

I'm having a red fever today. Man, Im so tired now.

Ice ag3

One of the MOST FUNNIEST movie I watched this year.
I can't believe I had tears in my eyes, not because its a sad story.
Its simply the cutest ever and I can't believe my 3D glasses even got my tears on it that I had to wipe it off.
Its a must watch movie. My Monday got off to a good start.

Morning, morning morning. No one answered me. I felt the mondays blue too, but I'm all cheerful
Didn't want to bring myself down just because of what I was told yesterday
I let it all pass and slip away. Had a feeling of going Sentosa this coming weekend.
However, I need to see Liverpool on Saturday somehow.
My oh my was I busy the whole morning. Fawze Fawze Fawze, come lai lai.
Made so much mistakes today but they still trust me to do and finish up work.
I felt so useless. I can't read what is written on paper. I think I'm color blind or blind.

12pm and I'm all tired and ready for my 1pm nap. I didn't realise my phone was off all the way through.
Stupid auto-off phone. I think I'm not the only one, right Sony Ericsson Users?
So many people was looking for me. I don't know why but I guess I had a good nag at the end of the day.
Everyone was like..another sms gone to waste. Don't like me say la. Were you busy? at least on your phone la so I can call.
I didn't know what up and I realise my phone was sleeping on the job. Oh well.

Had this crazy idea for a movie today. So we did went out to watch Ice Age in 3D.
I love 3D movies! don't you? Talking to a rock, That will be you in 3 weeks. HAHA!
Toxic=Laughing Gas. Those with gas go to the back. the jokes are endless.
But I guess every movie have to end. And I forgot to call home. Gosh my mum was worried.

I feel so much better with people around me. I guess I was never alone.
I was just made to believe I am. I was never in a bubble by myself.
I was in a bubble just like everyone else. Feeling bubbly? Sticky when it burst and peel off my chest hair to remove the nut.
OMG, that was such a funny part. and the pink turns to red. and the screams of pain=D

Peace

In this life,

I may not have many friends

I may have made a lot of enemies

I may talk a lot of crap

I may not be happy

I might always be sad

I may not have lived my life to the fullest

I might always be alone a lot, forever even

I might not get all I want

I might get shot and die

but for now and forever, I'm at peace=)

How my answering machine would sound like.

Hello and welcome.

If you are obsessive-compulsive, press 1 repeatedly.

If you are co-dependent, please ask someone to press 2 for you.

If you have multiple personalities, press 3, 4, 5, and 6.

If you are paranoid, we know who you are and what you want. Stay on the line so we

can trace your call.

If you are delusional, press 7 and your call will be transferred to the mother ship.

If you are schizophrenic, listen carefully and a small voice will tell you which number

to press.

If you are a manic-depressive, it doesn't matter which number you press, no one will

answer.

If you are dyslexic, press 9696969696969696.

If you have a nervous disorder, please fidget with the pound key until a representative

comes on the line.

If you have amnesia, press 8 and state your name, address, telephone number, date

of birth, social security number, and your mother's maiden name.

If you have post-traumatic stress disorder, s-l-o-w-l-y & c-a-r-e-f-u-l-l-y press 0

0 0.

If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss,

press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9.

If you have low self-esteem, please hang up. All operators are too busy to talk to you.

And...if you are blonde, don't press any buttons, you'll just screw it up.

Afraid to miss you.

I swear that I can go on forever, till the end.

Please let me know if I am lying, again.

I will go down as your lover, your best friend.

Give me you hand, and let me begin...

You always think you're alone

But you're right, I was never there for you

You're afraid I'd be gone, too soon

And I'm afraid that I'd miss you too.

I think I will wait 'till sunrise, with you

I'll keep my eyes open only, on you.

Where are you now? I can hear voices, in my head

And if you go on like this, I will feel the love and hate..

You always think you're alone

But you're right, I'm never there for you

You are afraid when I was not around

and that night, I was gone too soon...

Let it Ride

When it all got started I was steadily just getting rejected

All it all seemed like nothing I could do would ever get me respected

At the best I was stressed and the worst they probably said I was pathetic

Had all the pieces to that puzzle just no way to connect it

And I was fighting through every rhyme,tightening up every line.

Never resting the question if I was out of my mind

And it finally came time to do it or let it die

So I put the chips on the table and told them to let it ride.

Preparation for iPhone

1. Have enough money.

1.1 Have at least 2k for 2 years

1.2 Prepare to pay at least an extra 50 a month

2. Update my address book.

2.1 Get all my friends numbers

2.2 Get all their addresses ( If possible)

3. Do up my iTunes.

3.1 Add album art

3.2 Ensure all the song titles are correct

3.2 Change all files to AAC format

4. Buy a earphone.

4.1 Ensure it is iphone compatible

4.2 Noise reduction please

5. Prepare movies.

5.1 Convert all movies to fit

6. Download applications.

6.1 Look for good applications and download

7. Delete files from my old phone.

7.1 Delete pictures

7.2 Delete music

7.3 Delete Saved messages

7.4 Delete Videos

8. Package my old phone.

8.1 Put in charger

8.2 Put inside a box

Movie/Dinner/Wii/Surprise

Yesterday was one of my favorite day of the year. I didn't expect so much to happen in just one day. I'm just so glad the people who made it there yesterday was there to make it happen.

1st up, meet up with Yew King and Alvin Lee at Sommerset MRT, before heading to Cine to meet Mervyn and Eileen. I was late. suppose to meet at 3pm, but I change the time to 330, but end up reaching there at 4pm. Sorry Yewking for making you wait. We ended up waiting for Alvin anyway.

Transformers:Revenge of the Fallen is the movie we watched. Some might rate it half a star, or even 4. But I guess its a good enough movie with lots and loads of action, explosions and transformations! I enjoyed the transforming the most. The story line is great but the only thing is that the movie moved too fast. Its a little to rush for me. I would love to see more transformation. yeap, Its a great movie that everyone should watch. Four and half stars for me.=)

After the movie, Alvin went off to meet his friend and Yew King left awhile to take his watch that he send for service earlier. Me soon meet up with Buddy! Man, I can't believe we still calling each other buddy after all this time. I guess some things last. Called Kamal and he was with Jessica at Ngee Ann City. So we walked over to meet them too. Along the way, to my surpise, Faizah was standing beside the phone booth. OMG! I can't believe my eyes, its really her. What a Surprise! I was Shock-ed and buddy just smile. Thanks again buddy for letting me have a chance to see Faizah again.hehe

So we walked over to Ngee Ann City, I was still stunned so I didn't dare go over to talk to her. So I walked with Merv and Eileen right behind her and buddy.hehe, I'm a really shy guy, really. So we were really just think of having dinner but have no idea where, so we just walk and walked. Finally Kamal and Jessica joined in. We continue to walk until Kamal had an idea. Kamal can really find good makan places. So we headed to Clarke Quey, Manhattan Fish Market for dinner. Its really all just Seafood. Its a nice place. Yitjing and Nicky join us right at that moment.

After dinner, we walked over to Gamer Haven. whooo! We decided to play Wii! OMG, I'm so addicted to Wii now. Love the Guitar Hero now too. We played the Game show and lastly, my Favorite, some Rabbit game. So damn bloody cute la the game!!! I love the pick up phone call game, cause I got really good at it. The music game is cool too. Love spinning the wheel in the Game Show. We played all the way till 1am. OMG, I can't believe I played and enjoyed myself till so late. And I wasn't even tired or sleepy at all. Chuan Lim joined at the last moment, so we ended by standing in a circle and just talk. Soon, we have to end it and go home. REST.

RIP MJ. Thanks for teaching the world POP.

Another saturday afternon.

Last week was great, had 2 and half days off.

Went to PC show twice.

Watched Terminator Salvation with Hairul.

Played Left 4 Dead with Nasir, Firdaus and Hairul.

Went shopping, brought a new Trucker Cap, Nike Air Force 1, met Daddy at Sim Lim.

He wanted a headset just like mine. Haha!

Was chaotic back at the PC show.

Met buddy and Theo on Sunday and went to flee market and met Priscilla and Weini.

Great time with friends eh? I love going out nowadays.

I just realise, i miss someone. I loved someone. and I don't take to say it. I just wish that person knows it. but I don't think I am good enough.

You & him

Bila cerita idamanku hilang begitu saja, tenggelam aku.

Bebas ku terbang ke arah mu. Masih cintaku tidak dapat kau sanjung.

Tidak ku sedar angin berganti arah. Ku terlena di buai helah.

Resah nian sulit rasanya.

Melewati segala yang kian berubah.

Masihku terus bertahan.

Meski ku sedar rahsia kau dan dia

Ku butakan sebelah mata, ku genggam bara.

Masih ku cinta, terlalu cinta

Sedia ku bankitkan kasih kita

Sedia ku melupa kisah kau dan dia.

Mengapa adanya....dia

Although I know the secret between you and him

I choose to continue loving you.

Timbuktu

"The sun sets softly in the west,
and here we are at the end of quest.
I have found what I was looking for here in Timbuktu.
I must have courage now, so I can say 'I love you.'"

"Me and Tim went to the woods with emotions to vent,
When we came upon three women in a tent.
There was nothing else to do,
so I bucked one, and Timbuktu."

New Divide

The new Linkin Park song is finally here. It was release yesterday and its now available for download on Apple stores. Its also the new sound track of this years most anticipated movie, Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen. I can't wait for the movie. 24 June Babey!

New Divide-Linkin Park

I remember black skies, the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash as time began to blur
Like a startling sign, that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard
did I get what I deserve?
-
So give me reason, to prove me wrong to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross, the distance in your eyes
Give me reason, to fill this up connect the space between
Let it fill up to reach the truth and lies
Across this new divide
-
There was nothing in sight, the memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide, the ashes fell like snow
And the ground gave in between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard, and I get what I deserve
-
So give me reason, to prove me wrong to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross, the distance in your eyes
Across this new divide
-
And every loss, and every lie
And every truth that you deny
And each regret, and each divide
Was a mistake to break to hide?
And your voice was all I heard, but I get what I deserve
-
So give me reason, to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross, the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this up, connect the space between
Let it fill up to reach the truth and lies
Across this new divide
Across this new divide
Across this new divide

PS: I have the soundtrack as soon as it came out! haha! I'm so happy kan. Thanks Linkin Park for another great song.=)

Sadden and Tired

Yesterday was totally a night to forget. I was tired and extremely sad. Manchester United lifted the cup for the 18th time, and so does Inter Milan. How I wish 2nd spot Liverpool and AC Milan could win it. But I guess, we just have to wait for the next season.

This week has been hectic. Work non stop and had to work extra yesterday before finally getting a good nights rest. Stayed till 730 and only reaching home at 9pm. I guess it was one hell of a week. Sleeping at 12am every night just to play some games and waking up at 6am just to go work again. Work was all about standing, running around and carrying heavy objects. My arms are tired and my legs weak. My back are breaking and my neck is always sweating.

Hated standing in the MRT and bus while on my way to work. Really can't stand already. Extremely exhausted. But movie on Friday was great. The tiredness seems to go away for awhile. Thanks for the good times again guys.

I can't believe todays Sunday already. I just felt it was still Saturday.=(

My weekend, burned! grrr

I'm not happy now, still waiting for you call. Pls call, give me a sign, an SMS will do. Say you're alright. It will really help. Take care. bye.

Ouh Ibu~

Orang kata aku lahir dari perut mak..

(bukan org kata...memang betul)

Bila dahaga, yang susukan aku....mak

Bila lapar, yang suapkan aku....mak

Bila keseorangan, yang sentiasa di sampingku.. ..mak

Kata mak, perkataan pertama yang aku sebut....Mak

Bila bangun tidur, aku cari....mak

Bila nangis, orang pertama yang datang ....mak

Bila nak bermanja, aku dekati....mak

Bila nak bergesel, aku duduk sebelah....mak

Bila sedih, yang boleh memujukku hanya....mak

Bila nakal, yang memarahi aku....mak

Bila merajuk, yang memujukku cuma....mak

Bila melakukan kesalahan, yang paling cepat marah....mak

Bila takut, yang tenangkan aku....mak

Bila nak peluk, yang aku suka peluk....mak

Aku selalu teringatkan ....mak

Bila sedih, aku mesti talipon....mak

Bila seronok, orang pertama aku nak beritahu.....mak

Bila bengang.. aku suka luah pada..mak

Bila takut, aku selalu panggil... "mmaaakkkk! "

Bila sakit, orang paling risau adalah....mak

Bila nak exam, orang paling sibuk juga....mak

Bila buat hal, yang marah aku dulu....mak

Bila ada masalah, yang paling risau.... mak

Yang masih peluk dan cium aku sampai hari ni.. mak

Yang selalu masak makanan kegemaranku....mak

kalau balik ke kampung, yang selalu bekalkan ulam & lauk pauk.....mak

Yang selalu simpan dan kemaskan barang-barang aku....mak

Yang selalu berleter kat aku...mak

Yang selalu puji aku....mak

Yang selalu nasihat aku....mak

Bila nak kahwin..Orang pertama aku tunjuk dan rujuk.....mak

Aku ada pasangan hidup sendiri....

Bila seronok, aku cari....pasanganku

Bila sedih, aku cari....mak

Bila berjaya, aku ceritakan pada....pasanganku

Bila gagal, aku ceritakan pada....mak

Bila bahagia, aku peluk erat....pasanganku

Bila berduka, aku peluk erat....emakku

Bila nak bercuti, aku bawa....pasanganku

Bila sibuk, aku hantar anak ke rumah....mak

Bila sambut valentine.. Aku bagi hadiah pada pasanganku

Bila sambut hari ibu...aku cuma dapat ucapkan “Selamat Hari Ibu”

Selalu.. aku ingat pasanganku

Selalu.. mak ingat kat aku

Bila-bila... aku akan talipon pasanganku

Entah bila... aku nak talipon mak

Selalu...aku belikan hadiah untuk pasanganku

Entah bila... aku nak belikan hadiah untuk emak

Renungkan:

"Kalau kau sudah habis belajar dan berkerja... bolehkah kau kirim wang untuk mak?

mak bukan nak banyak... lima puluh ringgit sebulan pun cukuplah".

Berderai air mata jika kita mendengarnya........

Tapi kalau mak sudah tiada..........

MAKKKKK...RINDU MAK.... RINDU SANGAT....

Berapa ramai yang sanggup menyuapkan ibunya....

berapa ramai yang sanggup mencuci muntah ibunya.....

berapa ramai yang sanggup mengantikan lampin ibunya.....

berapa ramai yang sanggup membersihkan najis ibunya.......

berapa ramai yang sanggup membuang ulat dan membersihkan luka kudis ibunya....

berapa ramai yang sanggup berhenti kerja untuk menjaga ibunya.....

dan akhir sekali berapa ramai yang sembahyang JENAZAH ibunya......

Cross paths

Glitters filled the floor she stepped on. I was going down the escalator. My heart was beating heavily and my knees felt weak. I was nervous. There she was, as beautiful as ever. Nothing in the world can shine as bright as her. As so I feel deep down inside. The only one who can always make me shiver and freeze. I wanted to say Hi and even something more but I couldn't. We walked pass each other with just a wave and a smile. But that was enough to make my night a better one. I miss you. Thanks for making my teenage years worth living and thanks for bring out the best in me. You will always be, forever in my life, a morning motivation. Still remember I keep looking out for your bus to pass by, before going down and there again, we walked to school together. Remember the walk down the most memorial lane in my life. Even though we parted ways, I still regard you as the one who made me move on in life. Your words are still going strong in my heart. May you be forever bless and touch those lives you stepped into. I wish I can still thank you somehow, someway.

I just couldn't find the right words to say to you. I'm so sorry I wasn't even brave enough to say a word when we cross path. This path may never be cross again, I hope it will, some other day.

You know you drink too much coffee when...

* You answer the door before people knock.

* You haven't blinked since the last lunar eclipse.

* You just completed another sweater and you don't know how to knit.

* You have to watch videos in fast-forward.

* The only time you're standing still is during an earthquake.

* You can take a picture of yourself from ten feet away without using the timer.

* You're the employee of the month at the local coffeehouse and you don't even work there.

* Your eyes stay open when you sneeze.

* The nurse needs a scientific calculator to take your pulse.

* You're so jittery that people use your hands to blend their margaritas.

* You can type sixty words per minute with your feet.

* You can jump-start your car without cables.

* Cocaine is a downer.

* Your only source of nutrition comes from "Sweet & Low."

* You buy milk by the barrel.

* You go to AA meetings just for the free coffee.

* You walk twenty miles on your treadmill before you realize its not plugged in.

* Instant coffee takes too long.

* Your birthday is a national holiday in Brazil.

* You're offended when people use the word "brew" to mean beer.

* Your Thermos is on wheels.

* Your lips are permanently stuck in the sipping position.

* You have a picture of your coffee mug on your coffee mug.

* You can outlast the Energizer bunny.

* You short out motion detectors.

* You don't even wait for the water to boil anymore.

* Your nervous twitch registers on the Richter scale.

* Your three favorite things in life are... coffee before and coffee after.

* Your coffee mug is insured by Lloyds of London.

* Your first-aid kit contains two pints of coffee with an IV hookup.

Stress Management Advice

A lecturer, when explaining stress management to an audience, raised a glass of water and asked, "how heavy is this glass of water?"

Answers called out ranged from 8oz. to 20oz.

The lecturer replied, "The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long you try to hold it."

"If I hold it for a minute, that's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my right arm. If I hold it for a day, you'll have to call an ambulance."

"In each case, it's the same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes." He continued, "And that's the way it is with stress management."

"If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, as the burden becomes increasingly heavy, we won't be able to carry on."

"As with the glass of water, you have to put it down for a while and rest before holding it again. When we're refreshed, we can carry on with the burden."

"So, before you return home tonight, put the burden of work down. Don't carry it home. You can pick it up tomorrow. Whatever burdens you're carrying now, let them down for a moment if you can."

"Relax; pick them up later after you've rested. Life is short. Enjoy it!"

And then he shared some ways of dealing with the burdens of life:

* Accept that some days you're the pigeon, and some days you're the statue.

* Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in case you have to eat them.

* Always read stuff that will make you look good if you die in the middle of it.

* Drive carefully. It's not only cars that can be recalled by their Maker.

* If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague.

* If you lend someone S$20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it.

* It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning to others.

* Never buy a car you can't push.

* Never put both feet in your mouth at the same time, because then you won't have a leg to stand on.

* Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.

* Since it's the early worm that gets eaten by the bird, sleep late.

* The second mouse gets the cheese.

* When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.

* Birthdays are good for you. The more you have, the longer you live.

* You may be only one person in the world, but you may also be the world to one person.

* Some mistakes are too much fun to only make once

* We could learn a lot from crayons. Some are sharp, some are pretty and some are dull, Some have weird names, and all are different colors, but they all have to live in the same box.

"A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery on a detour.

HAVE AN NICE DAY !

Found Life

Friday was one of the good days coming back to life. I didn't had much time in office. At 11am, I was out and back to BRTC to setup for a meeting among the DC and Directors. After setting up, we went NTU to eat and there were sure alot of chinese girls there. OMG, so many many daaa..more than NYP. Took a jeep to go there, how cool was that. My 1st time taking a jeep. I rush to the Masjid and was surprise to see my cousin there. Met a whole lot of old people when I was back in BRTC. Things sure change a lot but some things never change.=)

After the Inter Unit Relay Run, macam F1 car racing laaa, I met up with Hairul, Nasir and Firdaus! Whooo! the P-unit is back together again. Everytime we meet up, sure got some cock to talk. Hairul was with his "Pedophile smile". Firdaus with his Mat Kelantan style talk, remember "Setarbak Kopi" LOL. Nasir always got this funny style of telling jokes that I will never know how he does it, but it makes me laugh all the time. We went to eat and went jalan2 at Jurong Point. There sure was alot of new shops there and banyak orang laa... Crowded with people as usual. I wonder how people can come Jurong Point and filling it up everyday. It will never be empty. Soon, time flies and we have to split but the 3 of them will always stay close to my heart.=) See you at office again Hairul.

My knee isn't doing so well after the bang. Left is hurt bad. Right is still okay. I can't run already. My knee just hurts. I'm so dead now. I need to find a cure for this.

I guess I finally out on the weekends. I went to Tampines 1 all by myself on early Saturday morning. Even then, there were people queueing up at Uniqlo. I don't know whats so great about the shop. -__-" Other than that, the day was very boring. Stayed at home and told myself to go out on Sunday at all.

Here I am, Sunday. Went out to go jalan2 at town. Found Anand to go out with. I was just walking around HMV, looking at CDs and somehow, I felt happy. I found a reason to live again. I love CDs. I love music. So many of it, I just have to go around and listen to every one of it. We then went to Borders and again, I was glad to see all the book around me. I wanted to buy all the comics too. Next week, I would want to visit a comics store at Bugis and check out the new Shopping Mall. Whooo! and maybe get a new game for my "collecting dust" Xbox. Man, I sure have something to look forward to.

Currently listening to QWERTY- Linkin Park. I still love Linkin Park.=) Totally love their music. Inspired by them and will always love Mike Shinoda's art work.

I'm so in love with the Vitagen Commercial girl. LOL, okay that was random. She is hot.

Nightmares

I had too many these days... I didn't know what struck me, but I'm having nightmares too often. I can sleep on one side, and waking up 180 degrees of my original position. Like from north and waking up south, east to west. I've been fighting too many creatures that are crawling out from my head.

Gargoyles, zombies, spiders, maggots, spirit reapers, orcs, pontianaks, vampires, werewolves...

Luckily there were no dragons.

the Wrong Bus

The dream began with me playing soccer at Kallang basketball court. I just finished my game of soccer and scored a wonderful hat trick and sweet victory for my team. I was making my trip back home and a friend of mine came from behind and ask me to accompany him home. He said he will pay for the bus trip. So I send him back, we talked on the bus. It was late, 10pm. So I told him I had to rush home since mum called me back. So i alighted a stop before his actual stop and cross over the road to take another bus. To my surprise, there we no bus for me to take from Potong Pasir back home. There was only bus 555. So the bus came and lucky me, it was heading for Toa Payoh.

When I boarded it, it was empty. No one was inside except for me and the bus driver. I guess it was late and no one would bother staying up late. So the bus made a move on, and soon after I realise I had not stopped for over a long time and it took a U turn to Macpherson road. I decided to stop at circuit road. I ask the bus driver, why he had not gone to Toa Payoh.

Bus driver: This bus don't stop at Toa Payoh. Can't you see its bus no. 666.

*shocked!*

I turn and look, there was no one. erm... So I alighted to see my old school of Macpherson Secondary. I soon find there were a lot of people alighting from the same bus. Not to worry, they are normal people. I was curious and thought it was only my imagination. It didn't bother my much at that point of time. I soon found that the bus stop had a jukebox installed. I decided to stop by and listen to some Jason Mraz songs. The headset was not even locked so I decided to steal it and put it inside my back. Now I wonder how I even got a bag with me. I soon turn to walk to the bus stop in front of Macpherson ITE. There were no busses that stop there!

So I was puzzled and confuse. So I went to walk and see what I can find. It was a ghost town. The clouds, dark as if it would rain soon. The place was very foggy and I can hardly see a thing. There were soft screams and a child crying. I try to see what is going on in there. I follow the trail of the voice. I soon met with a child inside a van. (I saw a child in a van crying in real life but decided to ignore him while I was on my way to work) I look and the child's eye turn black and turn blue. I ran as fast as I could. There was no looking back from that.

I find there we spiders crawling everywhere. Black widows and tarantulas were crawling all over. Creepy, they are my biggest fears at once. I ran trying to avoid all of them. Snakes we on the pipes of the ceilings. Non of them fell to the floor so I ran quicker. I decided to find someone that could help me. I couldn't find my phone and there is no way to call for help. My bad disappeared right after I kept the headset.

I took the lift to the 2nd floor when I met two teenagers. I followed them. They look relax as if they knew what had happen to this town. I asked them if they know what happen. silence. Tears followed after. They had no time to explain. The lift escalated to the 10th floor as if we were pulled by a force. The doors open. The two covered my eyes my I can smell and somehow found a way to see what happened. A man with his head out of his head with maggots crawling out. I jumped on the lift as hard as I could to make it go down to the 1st floor. I succeeded.

We ran only to find that we have disturbed a bunch of zombies who were resting. They ran towards us.( Left 4 Dead kind of zombies) We ran and ran. The two guys found a gun and began shooting their way out while I use my fist to punch my way through. There were so many of them.

I found my way through and saw a bus stop. I ran towards the bus stop. Before I could reach the bus stop, a bunch of pontianaks were chasing some people who survived the horrific town. Most didn't manage to survive after the pontianaks horrific scream. It was like a banshee I should say. I took my chance and ran. There was one chasing me but I manage to close my ears and block the scream. Guess what, its the headset I stole and it has noise cancelation. I was so glad I had it right in time. The bus came soon after , it was bus no. 334 and I boarded it. I made sure it was a bus to Toa Payoh this time.

I was totally breathless. I and I asked the bus driver, why he took a wrong turn and headed to the expressway. He said, we are going to Pasir Ris, not Toa Payoh. I was wrong again. And I ask him, what number? He replied, 444. I was in state of shock again. I can't believe I'm going to get into trouble and I have to work tomorrow! We reached Pasir Ris faster than I expected. I rushed to the MRT control station to tell them what happen. The guy was sleeping! I can't believe it. There was a man behind him and I called out to him. He turn and he don't seem to be doing so good. His face was pale and he told me that someone is calling out to me.

I turn and I found a spirit reaper. It was so dark, hallow. I couldn't explain my feelings back then, it was horrifying. I was scared to death. The dark soul, the death angel it seems. It tried to take my head but I dodge and ran. I fell from the slippery floor. My legs kicked its head while I was getting back up. I got back up and ran again. I ran and ran in fear. I was in great fear. I ran and ran and ran...

"fawze..bangun..(fawze, wake up)"-mum

My mum saved me. It was one out of 5 nightmares I had in this past week and each time I woke up, I found myself on the wrong side of the bed. I slept with my feet facing the door and I woke up with my head facing the door. Man, that was one story huh? I don't wish to have nightmares ever again..=(

Road to World Cup

Leading to the World Cup, I learn some Korean along the way...=P

Have you ever noticed that Korean is like English??

1) That's not right ........ Sum Ting Wong

2) Are you harboring a fugitive ........ Hu Yu Hai Ding

3) See me ASAP ........ Kum Hia

4) Stupid Man ........ Dum Gai

5) Small Horse ........ Tai Ni Po Ni

6) Did you go to the beach ........ Wai Yu So Tan

7) I bumped the coffee table ........ Ai Bang Mai Ni

8) I think you need a face lift ........ Chin Tu Fat

9) It's Very dark in here ........ Wao So Dim

10) I Thought you were on a diet ........ Wai Yu Mun Ching

11) This is a tow away zone ........ No Pah King

12) Our meeting is scheduled for next week ........ Wai Yu Kum Nao

13) Staying out of sight ........ Lei Ying Lo

14) He's cleaning his automobile ........ Wa Shing Ka

15) Your body odor is offensive ........ Yu Stin Ki Pu

16) Great ........ Fa Kin Su Pah

17) Give it to me baby ........ Suk Mai Dong

18) England will win the World Cup ........ No Fu Kin Wai

19) Who's been eating all the pies? ........ Yo Fat Wan Ka

I guess I should just stick with Malay.=)

Stupid/Interesting Questions

If it's tourist season, why can't we shoot them?

Whose cruel idea was it for the word "lisp" to have an "s" in it?

Since light travels faster than sound, is that why some people appear bright until you hear them speak?

How come abbreviated is such a long word?

If it's zero degrees outside today and it's supposed to be twice as cold tomorrow, how cold is it going to be?

Why do you press harder on a remote-control when you know the battery is dead?

Since Americans throw rice at weddings, do Asians throw hamburgers?

Why are they called buildings, when they're already finished? Shouldn't they be called builts?

Why are they called apartments, when they're all stuck together?

Why is a carrot more orange than an orange?

When two airplanes almost collide why do they call it a near miss? It sounds like a near hit to me!!

Why are there 5 syllables in the word "monosyllabic"?

Why do they call it the Department of Interior when they are in charge of everything outdoors?

If vegetarians eat vegetables, what do humanitarians eat?

Why is it, when a door is open it's ajar, but when a jar is open, it's not a door?

If all those psychics know the winning lottery numbers, why are they all still working?

Isn't the best way to save face to keep the lower part shut?

How come Superman could stop bullets with his chest, but always ducked when someone threw a gun at him?

If "con" is the opposite of "pro," then what is the opposite of progress?

Why is it lemon juice contains mostly artificial ingredients, but dishwashing liquid contains real lemons?

Why do we wash bath towels? Aren't we clean when we use them?

Why do we put suits in a garment bag and put garments in a suitcase?

Why doesn't glue stick to the inside of the bottle?

What do little birdies see when they get knocked unconscious?

If man evolved from monkeys and apes, why do we still have monkeys and apes?

Do married people live longer than single people, or does it just SEEM longer?

If a person with multiple personalities threatens suicide, is that considered a hostage situation?

If a cow laughed, would milk come out her nose?

If olive oil comes from olives, where does baby oil come from?

After eating, do amphibians need to wait an hour before getting OUT of the water?

Why don't they just make mouse-flavored cat food?

If you're sending someone some Styrofoam, what do you pack it in?

Why do they sterilize needles for lethal injections?

Do they have reserved parking for non-handicapped people at the Special Olympics?

Remembering Woodsvile

How long is 2 weeks?

a. 14 days

b. 336 hours

c. 20,160 minutes

d. 1,209,600 seconds

e. All of the above

Apparently, I just can't wait for 2 weeks to go by. Reasons being? I can't tell. I see the light in 2 weeks time. Or I might see darkness flooding my heart once again. Why did I even choose 2 weeks anyway?

It was a great BBQ outing yesterday. Had a mini Woodsville Gathering at Pasir Ris Park. Enjoy myself while playing cards, eating and chatting. We had alot of catching up session. I see so much change in some and some things that will never change among us. That is, we are all still friends. We even sang the Woodsville Song! whoot!

I want to try and put the lyrics of my school song if i can remember it..lets see..

Let us strive with hearts and song for you school,

Our love, our second home

Let us strive with....(blah blah..)

A name to carve where we roam

In years to come, with love and pride

We...( blah blah..)

For woodsville, our best endeavors

Woodsville our alimental be reminded forever and long...

Pertama

Kau ajar kan aku, segala yang ku tahu.

Tanpa mu ku kan jatuh.

Selalu di hati ku, walaupun diri jauh.

Kau tanpa ku mengadu

Ku tak kan mengerti, bagai bidadari.

Kau turun ke bumi.

Yang pertama di hatiku setiap masa

Apa nak di kata

Kau beri segala

Ku Pertama di hati mu,

yang perlu ku pertanya.

Hanya jiwa dan raga,

ku serahkan padamu.

What more can I ask...

You've done your very best

2nd Chances

I took my chances. Made mistakes and feel sorry for myself. I'm pathetic.

But I'm happy it made me learn an important lesson I won't soon forget. Thanks for giving me a 2nd chance in life. I never ask for anything more. Okay, now thats all settled, lets move on.

Faz uploaded some nice old pictures that I want to share. It was March 2008. I can't believe a year pass so fast and I'm still stuck in this life. Serving NS and still being the same loser that I am now. Well, I finally got my confidence back after 3 weeks of not scoring a goal as a striker. Stupid and pathetic again. My fitness level is still low(27%). I feel very lazy nowadays, tired is an excuse.

I miss the G-wes, Firdaus, Nasir, Kamal, Kimo, Zaty, Faz, Ain, Yani, Sue and Hairul. I don't miss Hairul much cos I see him every weekday, and even Sunday. Gay ah, I feel like its FYP all over again. Me and Hairul always hang out together, laugh and make fun of people. I wish you all will be my friends for life. I love all of you. I don't ever want us to split kays?

We should have another G-we outing, acam, J tak? :D

Here are some old pictures from back in the days... I want more pictures since my HDD crash. Zaty! when want pass my the pictures, gay!

Love this pic.

When we are not ready for a pic

Tired faces

Spanking good time!

The ultimate Disaster Group. G-WE!

What people are saying

Early morning. I just finished playing with my laptop and getting ready for work.

Mum:Gi siap cepat, nanti lambat...(get ready fast, later late)

Me: Okay mummy!

*goes to toilet to do business for the last time before heading for work.*

*wears uniform and tuck it all in and get socks*

While wearing my socks, I will see my mum taking the key and opening the gate for me. Then she will look down.

Me: Mummy, mummy tengok aper kat bawah?( Mum, what are you looking at down there?)

Mum: Mummy tengok budak2 gi sekolah.( Mummy watching the kids going to school)

Me: Knaper?(Why?)

Mummy: Mummy ingat2 lagi mummy antar OG(me) pergi sekolah dulu2.(Mummy remembering the time mummy send you to school last time)

I got this feeling how time flies and I'm serving NS now. I had a flash back every since she told me that too. Every morning, I walk on the same road I did more that 15 years ago. Its still the same old place. I can feel my hometown underneath my feet. I will never leave this place. This is the place where I was born and this is my family, my HOME. Nothing can take this away from me.

Things go bad and things change over time, but the one who is always there is my mum. I love her so much that I couldn't find the strength to leave her for another woman. I want to bring my mum to wherever I go. I will protect her with my life. You can mess with me, but you will never miss with my mum.

Left 4 Living

Imagine Singapore being totally infested with zombies, all running around and eating each other up every time they are hungry. No one was saved and there were only 4 survivors. How will the 4 survivors get out of Singapore in time to tell the world of the outbreak. And is there anything that could stop the virus from spreading to the rest of the world?

Woke up a 6, did morning prayer and sleep back. Woke up again at 1030am. And damn, I think I'm going to be late! whoo!, rush rush rush and I was the 1st to reach Dhoby Ghaut MRT. Waited for Kamal, Nasir. We had KFC in the morning. Soon after, Hairul joined us and I didn't realise he came from the back and we walk together. And by the way, I forgot to message Fir! mati mati! haha.

So we played Left 4 Dead, it was the 1st time for me and Nasir, Kamal and Hairul played before. Wah, damn addictive. Now I feel like I'm in a world full of zombies that I just want to kill with my bare hands and guns. I love the part where dozens of them rush to me and we have to fight them all off. Cool, we should play again some day..=)

I just don't know if I should call you out. I'm scared. I'm fearful.

God, what should I do? I don't want to lose you...if only she knew.

Push

Watched Push with you today.

It was an okay movie, the ending sucks though. I wish i was a "Watcher" now so I can see where life leads me to and I can change my future for the better=)

All I wanted to say...

You look so Beautiful today.

When you're sitting there, it's hard for me to look away.

So I tried to find the words that I could say.

I know the distance doesn't matter, but you feel so far away.

And I can't lie, every time I leave my heart turns grey.

And I want to come back home to see you face tonight.

You still look Beautiful to me.

Every time I turn around, I see you face.

The thing I miss the most is just sitting right next to you.

When I look into your eyes, I wish that I could stay.

And I'm tired of being all alone,

and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home.

Am I born to tell you I loved you?

I am torn to do what I have to make you mine, stay with me tonight.

New Husband Store

A store that sells new husbands has just opened near my house, where a woman may go to choose a husband. Among the instructions at the entrance is a description of how the store operates:

"You may visit this store ONLY ONCE! There are six floors and the value of the products increase as the shopper ascends the flights. The shopper may choose any item from a particular floor, or may choose to go up to the next floor, but you cannot go back down except to leave the building!"

So, a woman goes to the New Husband Store to find a husband.

On the first floor the sign on the door reads: Floor 1 - These men have jobs.

The second floor sign reads: Floor 2 - These men have jobs and love kids.

The third floor sign reads: Floor 3 - These men have jobs, love kids, and are extremely good looking.

"Wow," she thinks, but feels compelled to keep going.

She goes to the fourth floor and sign reads: Floor 4! - These men have jobs, love kids, are drop-dead good looking and help with housework.

"Oh, mercy me!" she exclaims, "I can hardly stand it!"

Still, she goes to the fifth floor and sign reads: Floor 5 -These men have jobs, love kids, are drop-dead gorgeous, help with housework, and have a strong romantic streak.

She is so tempted to stay, but she goes to the sixth floor.

The sign reads: Floor 6 - You are visitor 31,456,012 to this floor. There are no men on this floor. This floor exists solely as proof that women are impossible to please.

Thank you for shopping at the New Husband Store.


To avoid gender bias charges, the store's owner opens a New Wives Store just across the street.

The first floor has wives that love sex.

The second floor has wives that love sex and have money.

The third through sixth floors have never been visited

DJ Fawever!

I'm dreaming again and this time, to be a Deejay. Yes, DJ. LOL

I love music and mixing all kinds of music together. But I would love to bring people together. Its like the best feeling, bringing people with music. So today, I tried out the songs I have in my iTunes into my djay set. It was pretty cool and easy to use. :) My ears are tired now listening from non-stop music. I guess all I need now is a mic and abit of practice.

Ouh man, I'm day dreaming again.

I want a gundam toy and some transformers can? =O

Was so happy yesterday, Liverpool trash the league leaders, European Champions, English Champions and world best club, 1-4.

Penalty from Ronaldo gave the lead but was later equalize by Fernando Torres. Gerrard penalty gave Liverpool a 1-2 lead before the break. Aurelio free kick gave Liverpool a 2 goal cushion before Dossena lobs over Van de Saar to give the Red a victory over the Red Devils.

This shows that good always prevails against (d)evil.=)

Yesterday was also a nice day out. Went to Siddique's sisters wedding. It was a coincidence that his brother-in-law is my NS friend, Irfan. So I had a great time there, since I know quite a number of people. Even my uncle is a friend of his dad. After that, went to IT fair and got myself a new HDD to back up my files and a Headphone. =) I was accompanied by Zyzy. Had alot of fun, playing rugby, squeezing our way thur the crowd. Traffic jam and even got stuck on the escalator. But I'm so use to being suck there, since i love to jam the crowd by being stuck in the escalator.=P there was even this "TV Mobil TV Mobil.."LOLs *winks* had dinner at BK, wierd that I didn't feel hungry at all but Zyzy makan slow, tempt me je. She can really eat a lot.

Anyways, its been awhile since i blog a decent entry. Its always been crap, songs and more crap. I shall try to update more on how I'm doing and all else. I still hate NS, waste my time. But my pay is okay, not been spending much. Random questions...I don't know what I really want. Everything is still blur and nothing can be confirm. I'm so lost, but I'm sure I will find my way again.

Till then...I will just let the silence remain. I have no regrets. I don't know if there are any roads left ahead. But I will continue to run...

Never Again

A song by Justin Timberlake. A sudden strike to my heart, guess it nice if it really means something, well, would have use to be meaningful but it means nothing now. You will never love me again.=)

Would have given up my life for you.

Guess it's true what they say about love,

It's blind.

Girl, you lied straight to my face,

Looking in my eyes.

And I believed you 'cause I loved you more than life.

And all you had to do,

was apologize...

You didn't say you're sorry,

I don't understand.

You don't care that you hurt me,

and now I'm half the man,

That I used to be when it was you and me.

You didn't love me enough.

My heart may never mend,

and you'll never get to love me, again...

Sadness has me at the end of the line.

Helpless watched you break this heart of mine,

and loneliness only wants you back here with me.

Common sense knows that you're not good enough for me,

and all you had to do,

was apologize, and mean it.

I wish like hell I could go back in time.

Maybe then I could see how,

Forgiveness says that I should give you one more try.

But it's too late, it's over now.

My heart may Never Mend, and you'll never get to love me again...

ATM

It all started with ATM. And just see what came out of it. all have A-T-M for every sentence.=) enjoy the story.

Atok the man

Atok tak mahal

Atok tinggal Marsling.

Atok teach Mathematics.

Atok takde misai

Atok technician melayu

Atok tester murah

Atok terlalu malas 

Pada suatu hari,

Atok terpijak muntah.

Atok takda mood.

Atok takmo makan.

Atok terus mambuk.

Atok ter maki-maki.

Atok talk merepek 

Atok tumbuk mambang.

Atok ternampak minah

Atok touch minah.

Atok tak miss 

Atok too much..! eh?

Atok terpandang Makcik

Atok tengok Makcik

Atok terpekik.."MakCik!"

Atok tolong Makcik

Atok thinking macam-macam

Atok tercakap "Miss-you"

Atok ter-cium Makcik

Atok tak malu

Atok teruk mah

Atok tu ... MEMANG! 

Atok tu me.

PS: Thanks cu for making this so funny and making me laugh all night. Your simply the best at making random shit come out.=)

An end of an Affair...

This is a made up story, no points are intended to anyone living or dead. 

Enjoy.

A black ring melted down to a bullet.

A bullet so dark and a shot would hurt.

I stared at myself, with nothing left.

I was scared and didn't realise what I had.

I thought it would be easy to let it be.

But it all ended, sadly for me.

I shot a gun right thru his chest.

Fought my way through the arrest.

I stared down myself, with all my needs,

I was scared and I didn't realise over what I did.

I think that I've out done myself today,

But it all ended, sadly for me.

Blood spill all over the corridors and ceilings.

Trying to find the evidence for his wrong doings.

I stared at the scene, with all the stains.

I was scared and didn't realise all her pain.

I was sure it would be him who had his way.

But it all ended, sadly for me.

Silence fill the cold dark sky and where I'm at.

It was a mistake and it filled me with regrets.

I stared at the grave, with everything gone.

I was scared and didn't realise that life goes on.

I was stuck in the memory and the pictures played,

And it i all ended, sadly for me.

Stranger

Turn around,
Turn around and fix your eye in my direction
So there is a connection.
I can't speak,
I can't make a sound to somehow capture your attention
I'm staring at perfection.

Take a look at me so you can see
How beautiful you are.

You call me a stranger, you say I'm a danger,
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight.
I'm broke and abandoned you are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight.

I'm confident,
But I can't pretend I wasn't terrified to meet you.
I knew you could see right through me
I saw my life flash right before my very eyes
And I knew just what we'd turn into
I was hoping that you could see

Take a look at me so you can see...

You call me a stranger, you say I'm a danger,
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight.
I'm broke and abandoned you are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight.

You are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight.

Take a look at me so you can see
How beautiful you are... {x4}

Your beauty seems so far away
I'd have to write a thousand songs
To make you comprehend how beautiful you are.
I know that I can't make you stay
But I would give my final breath
To make you understand how beautiful you are.
Understand how beautiful you are.

You call me a stranger, you say I'm a danger
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight.
I'm broke and abandoned you are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight.

You call me a stranger...
You say I'm a danger...
You call me a stranger...

Note: I was listening to this song on my way to work and my eyes was fix on this girl in the bus throughout the journey. And suddenly this song makes sense.=)

Soccer boy outs in the Sun & Rain

Yesterday was one of those days. I finally get back to old school with the boys. My soccer peeps. Those who always come down every night to play soccer. The Kallang boys. My neighborhood friends Eventhough I don't know all of them, I roughly know their name. 20 of us, out at Sentosa. Left home at ard 1030am. Took a lorry 'ballak' from Bendemeer all the way to Sentosa. Funny things happen along the way. We were like those Bangla workers, but we were extra noisy. It was a very hot morning but all of us were hot too.=P

Upon entering, we need to pay to get in. Suddenly Wan laughed out loud. Then we got to enter Sentosa for free. I don't know what happen but i guess members nye pasal..haha. 1st thing we arrived at Palawan beach, I was like, "where is the goal post!?" Use to have it, but I guess its been removed. So we picked another open area to play our beach soccer. So we played and played, bathe and all. Then it started raining. But that did not stop us. I didn't count the number of times the lifeguard have to warn us. LOL, we were just so naughty. We were like the noisiest group there. Non-stop noise seyy, serious. Very kecoh. They were like cheer leaders the whole day. Funny thing was, tourist kept taking pictures of us when it was raining, cause were we the only group who didn't even care about the rain. We keep running and making noise, like red indians. Red Indians also lose out to us. We were very rowdy, trust me.

20 of us didn't help at all. We were like running after chicks but we never touch or harm anyone.=) We played in the baby pool, haha. We also tried to be cheer leaders by making a human pyramid. which was cool.The rain started at around 12 and all the way to 4pm. it was like 4 long hours of heavy rain. Its my 1st time to ever get caught up in the rain and it feels like I'm showering the whole 4 hours. Free Shower! oops, I paid to get into Sentosa kay! =P

*Free*

The day was great, I am so tired that I didn't blog this out earlier. I need more rest, still exhausted after a very long day at Sentosa. Pictures are on my Facebook=)

I miss mama...=) don't take it the wrong way kay.

Leading the way...

"Permission to carry on Lance Corporal Fawze?"
"Carry on..."

The words that made my day.=)

Good day, good week and its only Tuesday. I'm tired. Much work to be done but I feel I have a team behind me to help out along the way. I can't believe I'm being made a leader and in charge again. Haiz..I wish I wasn't like this, I want to relax now.

Talked to you for 3 days. Miss you for 2 days. I just need one day out with you. Hope to love you forever.=)

Arh crap, I going out of my mind again. I'm probably dreaming again.

Anyways, I think we need to do this again Rozi and YC. haha=) I saw the pic and just feel like going out with the 2 of you again.=\

I want to start and don't ever want to stop. I should go out dating again. Sitting at home doing nothing will not help. Have to ask people out I guess.=)

Haiz, tmr have to help "lalat" draw a butterfly cause "Suria" people want to come do some filming in SCDF Innoventure Land. Guess the decorations will be done by me. Can I have more time to train my men to help me do my work. I feel like I just have to train everyone to do my work, I'm overloaded with work.

Leading the way again...

I'm happy today..but I'm starting to miss my nanny.=(

a Bit of Humor - the Obedient Son

A husband and wife go visit a marriage counselor. First, the wife speaks to the counselor alone. The counselor asks, "You say you've been married 20 years, so what seems to be the problem?"

The wife replies, "It's my husband -- he's driving me crazy! I'm going to leave him if he continues!"

"How does he drive you crazy?"

"For 20 years," she says, "he's been doing these stupid things. First, whenever we go out, he's always looking at the floor and refuses to go near anyone. It's very embarrassing."

The marriage counselor is amused, "Anything else?"

"He keeps picking his nose all the time! Even in public!"

"Hmm, anything else?"

The wife hesitates, "whenever we're making love, he NEVER lets me be on top! Once in a while, I'd like to be in control!"

"Ah," says the counselor, "I think I'll talk to your husband now."

So the wife goes out of the room and the husband enters. The counselor tells him, "Your wife says that you've been driving her crazy. She might even leave you."

The husband looks shocked, "WHAT? For 20 years I've been loving and considerate and I've always given her what she wants! What could be the problem?"

The counselor explains, "She says that you've got these habits that are driving her crazy. First, you're always acting strange in public--looking at the floor and never going near anyone else."

The husband looks concerned, "Oh, you don't understand! It's one of the few things my father told me to do in his deathbed and I swore I'd obey everything he said."

"What did he say?"

"He said that I should never step on anyone's toes!"

The counselor looks amused, "Actually, that means that you should not do anything that would cause anyone else to get angry."

The husband looks sheepish, "Oh. Okay."

The counselor continues, "And you keep picking your nose in public."

"Well, its another thing my father specifically commanded me to do! He told me to always keep my nose clean."

The counselor looks faint, "That means that you should not indulge in any criminal activity."

"Oh," says the husband looking very stupid.

"And finally, she says that you never allow her to be on top during your lovemaking."

"This," says the husband seriously, "is the last thing my father commanded me to do on his deathbed and it's the most important thing."

"What did he say?"

The husband replies, "In his dying breath, he said. Don't screw up."

the Dark Kid

Tired, just plain tired. I wanted so much for this and I'm left with nothing. Desperate. I wanted it all, risk it all and fall without nothing at all. Blame it on me. I am at fault. I am that damn dumb. I am useless. I cannot be trusted with anything and everything. I don't know what I did wrong and my parents blame it on me. They never tell me anything and say I was in the wrong. I guess trying to avoid being at fault, but faults finds me. I don't know what will become of me in this world. I just wish to go soon.

Doing all the good I can in this world, never giving up hope. But everything and everyone sees me as a mistake. I try to bring justice but end up in prison for all the wrong doings you've done. Its better to die hero, but for me, I lived too long to see myself become a villain. I've been watching you, keeping and eye and watching your back. No one really appreciates that anyway. Its normal for humans to be blind. I don't blame them for it. No one is perfect. I am no one. No matter how much good I bring to this world, they chose to be evil. These people have not seen the light. For I bring darkness into each and every heart I touch.

I may not be what you expect me to be, I am never that important anyway. I'm just another face in the crowd and another piece of the puzzle in your world. It will not be complete without me. I may have change your life and made you think differently, change you perspective, your point of view. I wanted to do that, so you can see how much this world had poisoned you mind. I will stay up each and every night just to watch you sleep safe. This world has a lot to learn and so much change will come. For what ever the reason of change, it will not come without a sacrifice. I will not let that sacrifice be a soul of an innocent.

Just don't bother about me anymore. I will just be another boring guy. I will not be somebody. I will not make a difference. For the last 21 years of my life, I've change so much. I made so much of a difference. And for the next half of my life, I will stay hidden and will not make a move. Lets see how much the world will be without me.

I will not stand for all the money you cheat.
I will not hide from you when you want to meet.
I will not sit around to wait for the pot to heat.
I will not let you abuse power with greed.

I am...

I am just not powerful

I can't change your feelings.
I can't turn back the hands of time.
I can't ask you to do everything I want you to.
I can't make you trust me.
I can't make you believe me.
I can't make you love me.
I can't make you hate me.
I can't change the way you think about me.
I can't influence people as I use to.
I can't win everything.
I can't stop death.
I can't have all the money in the world.
I can't fight back.
I can't let you lose.

No matter how good I am.
No matter how good I try to be.
There are just too many things that I can't do.
I am just not that powerful.

When I'm with you

I'm taking my time,
I'm trying to leave the memories of you behind.
I'm gonna be fine,
As soon as I get your picture right out of my mind.

I wanna feel the way you make me feel when I'm with you.
I wanna be the only hand you need to hold on to.
But every time I call you don't have time.
I guess I'll never get to call you mine .

You're nothing at all,
I know there's a million reasons why I shouldn't call.
With nothing to say,
could easily make this conversation last all day.

Another lesson I didn't get to learn.
Your my obsession.
I've got nowhere to turn.

I wanna feel the way you make me feel when I'm with you.
I wanna be the only hand you need to hold on to.

I guess I'll never get to call you mine.

2 different outings on 1 weekend

It was very tiring. On friday night, went to Timbre fro AO's 21st birthday chill out. Handed him a shoe bag as his present. Liverpool all the way bro! Drank only plain water as there is so much alcohol there and I couldn't drink it. It was quite a nice place to just chill out with friends and hear to a live band perform. The girl had such a beautiful voice and the band was terrific. Can just play any songs we throw at them.

After Timbre, went on to watch a movie at Marina Square. Its was such a sad movie and very long one too. I love the part ..." Did I ever tell you I was struck by lightning 7 times?" It was a great story and Brad Pitt is so hot kan? I wonder if ever, the clock runs backwards, I just wish I could have stayed longer with you and hope it stops at my favorite part. I miss you and will always love you.  After the movie, AO sent me home. We were like on the road, 2am in the morning. I was so sleepy, reach home and fall on the fall straight. 

Saturday was another day and another outing. Expected to meet around 20 plus people, but only 6 made it, including me. I purposely came 15 minutes late cause non of us would come so early. Zaty was lost and so she was excuse. yeah right... We headed to Lau Pa Saat for out dinner. We seriously don't know what to eat, so we just order. Zaty treat kan? haha, looks like it at the start. 

After dinner, we went walking beside the Singapore river. It was a cold, quiet night. Zaty took out her camera, and we went camwhoring lor! with tripod stand and all, we took pictures of the stars and moon, i was hoping to take pic with the sun too.=) Pictures can be found on my Facebook. Having 6 people is so easy to manage and everyone of us enjoyed ourselves. Zaty wanted to go Starbucks, so we go. Everything also follow Zaty, because she is so damn "gay". Bang!